[Ivar holds her gaze steadily without saying a word. It's hard for any Viking to express their emotions and doubly so for him, the one who can't properly express how he feels. With most people, he feels such a disconnect, like they're less real than they should be. He wouldn't care if any of them died or if he'd decided to kill them. Letha is different. The feeling inside him when he's around her is something he can't put a name on yet.
Finally, he breaks eye contact with her, looking off to the side when he finally answers.]
[You can't fool her, Ivar, she's grown up with nothing but cool and vague responses like this. The prickly moment fades, as if she was never bothered by it, and a smile spreads over her face. Although... it's tinted with a bit of nerves. For all this dance of theirs, she still hasn't gotten a clear grasp of his feelings for her. Just that he wants her safe, and would be sad if she died.]
I didn't just come here to brag. [She sort of blurts it out, trying to fill silence and clear out the thoughts in her mind.] I've been thinking- all day, about what you'd think of my fighting, and... I wanted you to be the first person I saw when I came back.
[Ivar doesn't even know how he feels about her himself. He enjoys her company and is usually happy to see her. Does he like her? Well, that's the hard part for him to grasp. He's never really felt this way about any woman before, so he's a bit blind as to what he's supposed to do or act. He's feeling his way through the dark here.]
I would have liked to see you going up against Jǫrmungandr's spawn.
[She was no shieldmaiden, but Ivar knew that she could handle a sword well enough. He reaches out, grasping the end of her ponytail between his fingers. He rubs them through her dark locks.]
[There's enough light, low as it is, that the red on her cheeks stands out against her pale skin. Ivar may be blind, but Letha has only one man to base her experience on and that may be a bit worse. Her feelings are stronger than they had been for Aristeo, and she's bolder knowing this is her choice... and it almost hurts that he seems to keep teasing her without making his stance known.]
You'll have to come along... the next time I try to dance with death.
[She reaches up to touch his hand, her fingers tracing over his skin before slipping into the spaces between his fingers. There's just a tiny moment of hesitation, before she guides him to touch her cheek instead. To touch her as much as he would let her convince him to.]
I'll need to be there to protect you. You'll do something stupid and I'll have to rescue you.
[Then she guides his hand up to her cheek. Part of him wants to flinch back. Part of him wants to trace every contour of her face until he knows it all. She's making it very clear how she feels about him. He's never had anyone show any interest in him. Always, he's just an object of pity. Frozen with indecision, he thinks of what his brothers would do with an attractive woman in the middle of the night. Then he discards most of what he remembers because he's not that bold. Still, he's got one thing he can do comfortably.
The hand on her cheek moves down to curl around her neck, gently pulling he closer to him. He uses his free hand to push himself a little out of the wheelchair so that he can rest his forehead against Letha's. His eyes close and he lets them rest that way.]
[When the gesture comes, she's not exactly sure where he's going with it. And when she catches on, it feels odd.. because she's never been the taller one involved. Not to mention it being a rare gesture in the first place, in Thornwell. Still, Ivar is being calm and affectionate, not just allowing her affection, and that's enough to make her heart flutter.
The angle is a little awkward for both of them - she's leaned down enough for her belly to pull her off-balance, and she doubts it's comfortable to hold himself out of his chair like that - so she pulls away slightly after a moment. As she does, her hands move to cup Ivar's cheeks, and she presses a kiss to his forehead. If only they were in bed, these affectionate touches would be more accessible... but she has no excuses to get him there. None except for how empty her bed feels now that she's had a taste of being beside him. Her cheeks are scarlet with that thought, as she stands back up and sort of lingers with her fingers affectionately tracing his skin.]
I trust you to protect me... more than anyone else.
[Ivar sinks back down into his wheelchair, his arms trembling a little, but not from the effort of holding himself up. That was a much more intimate moment than he's ever shared with a woman. Just pure sex didn't even come close to it.]
We should go back inside. It's late.
[It's a retreat, something that's a product of his mind not knowing how to deal with the situation at hand. When Ivar doesn't know how to deal with a situation, he has to think, analyze it, and approach it from all angles until he knows exactly what he's going to do. There's too many emotions involved right now and he has to dissect them.
Without waiting for Letha to answer, he turns his wheelchair in an abrupt manner that makes the wheels scrape harshly against the ground, and he goes back inside.]
[She knew Aristeo long enough to know those retreats by heart, but something still feels a bit heavy in her chest when he suddenly turns the chair and she has to pull her hands back to avoid the handles in the back hitting her.
She hates to be left alone like this, given time to analyze, and overanalyze, and panic, and think of every mistake she might have made. After being allowed such intimate affection, she knows she isn't going to sleep tonight.
The door is already closing behind Ivar by the time she thinks to go inside herself, so she silently lets him make his escape and wanders reluctantly to her own bed.]
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Finally, he breaks eye contact with her, looking off to the side when he finally answers.]
I might.
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[You can't fool her, Ivar, she's grown up with nothing but cool and vague responses like this. The prickly moment fades, as if she was never bothered by it, and a smile spreads over her face. Although... it's tinted with a bit of nerves. For all this dance of theirs, she still hasn't gotten a clear grasp of his feelings for her. Just that he wants her safe, and would be sad if she died.]
I didn't just come here to brag. [She sort of blurts it out, trying to fill silence and clear out the thoughts in her mind.] I've been thinking- all day, about what you'd think of my fighting, and... I wanted you to be the first person I saw when I came back.
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I would have liked to see you going up against Jǫrmungandr's spawn.
[She was no shieldmaiden, but Ivar knew that she could handle a sword well enough. He reaches out, grasping the end of her ponytail between his fingers. He rubs them through her dark locks.]
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You'll have to come along... the next time I try to dance with death.
[She reaches up to touch his hand, her fingers tracing over his skin before slipping into the spaces between his fingers. There's just a tiny moment of hesitation, before she guides him to touch her cheek instead. To touch her as much as he would let her convince him to.]
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[Then she guides his hand up to her cheek. Part of him wants to flinch back. Part of him wants to trace every contour of her face until he knows it all. She's making it very clear how she feels about him. He's never had anyone show any interest in him. Always, he's just an object of pity. Frozen with indecision, he thinks of what his brothers would do with an attractive woman in the middle of the night. Then he discards most of what he remembers because he's not that bold. Still, he's got one thing he can do comfortably.
The hand on her cheek moves down to curl around her neck, gently pulling he closer to him. He uses his free hand to push himself a little out of the wheelchair so that he can rest his forehead against Letha's. His eyes close and he lets them rest that way.]
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The angle is a little awkward for both of them - she's leaned down enough for her belly to pull her off-balance, and she doubts it's comfortable to hold himself out of his chair like that - so she pulls away slightly after a moment. As she does, her hands move to cup Ivar's cheeks, and she presses a kiss to his forehead. If only they were in bed, these affectionate touches would be more accessible... but she has no excuses to get him there. None except for how empty her bed feels now that she's had a taste of being beside him. Her cheeks are scarlet with that thought, as she stands back up and sort of lingers with her fingers affectionately tracing his skin.]
I trust you to protect me... more than anyone else.
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We should go back inside. It's late.
[It's a retreat, something that's a product of his mind not knowing how to deal with the situation at hand. When Ivar doesn't know how to deal with a situation, he has to think, analyze it, and approach it from all angles until he knows exactly what he's going to do. There's too many emotions involved right now and he has to dissect them.
Without waiting for Letha to answer, he turns his wheelchair in an abrupt manner that makes the wheels scrape harshly against the ground, and he goes back inside.]
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She hates to be left alone like this, given time to analyze, and overanalyze, and panic, and think of every mistake she might have made. After being allowed such intimate affection, she knows she isn't going to sleep tonight.
The door is already closing behind Ivar by the time she thinks to go inside herself, so she silently lets him make his escape and wanders reluctantly to her own bed.]